Rain

It's supposed to be spring, yet its raining and its cold outside, as though winter decided to hang around for a little longer.

One of the minus points of being taller than average: I could never share an umbrella with someone. The other person would just as wet. A jumper with a hoodie would suffice for me. Hehz

Sometimes I just feel like being a toy soldier. Like those you see in movies e.g 'Universal Soldier' or 'Terminator' etc etc... A soldier whose whole life is about accepting orders regardless of circumstances. His whole purpose in life (if this is considered a life) is just to complete tasks handed out to him.

'Mission Accepted'
'Mission Accomplished'

A task arrives, the task is completed. Receive and execute without question, without complaints, without an alternative choice. It would be a life without free will. Defintely a life with direction i.e to accomplish the mission, without the hassle of choices, emotions, other factors at all.... It would be nice wouldnt it? .....


NOT.


I guess that's the whole beauty of life itself. Be it whether you're an atheist or a God believing person, the beauty of life is free will. The freedom to make decisions, to make choices, to determine the paths we take. Some people choose to base their choices on what they believe in, others make decisions based on themselves. Sometimes we make bad ones, sometimes we make good ones. We struggle with making choices because we all fear making the wrong decisions. We all contemplate and anticipate the consequences it will have on us and the people around us.

That's life. The beauty of it is in that we get to choose.

Am I idealistic? Or just too simple minded for my own good?? maybe....

My heart can plan where I want to go or end up. But at the end of the day, its the Lord that determines each step I take and I choose to take the step he's given me. Maybe I wont end up where I would have wanted/wished to be. Maybe my ambitions and aspirations will take a U-turn. haha who knows?

We talk about a desert. I admit I'm wandering in it, BUT I AM SURE beyond any shadow of a doubt that I AM NOT LOST. The pillar of fire leads me by day, and the cloud by night.