The Beautiful Game

I was never a fan of Zidane, but there is no doubting his sheer class. A world class player one cut above the rest.

An art film about football (never thought it existed) ... a film on the 90 minutes of a single football game in which the cameras never once panned away from Zidane. Some might not appreciate it, but it really is breathtaking to see a game through the eyes of a magician. His movements are like clockwork, not one too many. Efficiency. He never looses possession of the ball.He doesn't waste unnecessary energy on tricks, just plain simple passing and running. Yet everything about it seems so graceful... The way he weaves through the defence as though he's untouchable. The moving into space, the seemingly impeccable first touch... The film captures his emotions, the focused and silent player on the pitch who yet can suddenly explode into a hotheaded confrontational creature....

I think my exorbitantly expensive movie ticket was worth it. A really different perspective into football. Certainly there wasn't alot of action, but to see HOW a player like Zidane plays really is beautiful.

Waterbound

Looking at the sea sets my mind thinking. Just staring at the seemingly endless ocean, listening to the waves, enjoying the sea breeze…

I always had a penchant for water. The source of all physical life.

Just hanging on the inside of the swimming pool…. I could do that for hours. Just staying in the water, floating around in the seemingly weightlessness, the feeling of wet hair and skin…

I only wish that the pool at my place opens at night. There is nothing like a night soak… Well that’s just insight to me.

Genome Science...

Hmmm suddenly I'm am starting to get that familiar feeling called stress. Midsemester exam for my core subject next week.

Well, I have concluded that everyone's own subject seems the most difficult to them. So no point whining.

Just do your best, and let the Lord do the rest... That's what my dad told me when I was a kid. hehz

Put to death.

No I didn't draw this.

Sometimes I just wished that stupid negative, selfish thoughts from the old self would just GO AWAY... The endless bombardment... Vindicate me from the endless battle that goes on in my mind please....

Yet somehow, I know not to pray for an easier task, but to be stronger... Victory has already been won. Stand firm and look to Him.

Lead me not into temptation,
but deliver me from the evil one...

Black Black Heart...

Hush... Do you hear it? Something ugly this way comes...

Wont you ever die, Jonathan Chee? ......How I want to put you to death once and for all.

Lullaby

Have mercy on me...

Blackout

The whole building had a blackout just now. In other words, the lift was not functioning. I actually intended on walking up 23 flights of stairs but standing on the ground floor and just staring all the way up, I totally gave up.

Homecell was good and it's just great to hear people open up and share. It's really encouraging to hear and to see people learning (hopefully). LTC starts soon. Really expecting to see what will happen this semester.

I don't really feel like playing soccer all of a sudden. Another early morning just seems so unappealing... Sigh.

Catnap-ed

First time I ever felt so guilty about a catnap. Am I really that tired? To wake up even feeling worse than before I took the nap... As if a hangover happened. Like every cell is just screaming 'TIRED!' to me.

'Are you for us or for our enemies?'

Neither.

Pray not that God is on our side, but that we are on His side.

That's what prayer is: not asking God to do what we want, but doing what He wants. Be humbled, be heartened, be prayerful.

Amazing.

Russell accepted Christ. Praise the Lord! hahaha

More little tidbits: I was on a semisortof whiny mode because I initially wouldn't be able to play in the futsal tournament this Saturday at Hobson's Bay. After hearing the piece of good news, I just went into a time of praise and prayer.

Next thing i knew, comm meeting was postponed and there's even a free bbq on the 24th now. hahaha. wow!


Blessed would be an understatement

Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from the evil one.

Physical training is good, but training for godliness is much better, promising benefits in this life and in the life to come...

For it is HIS will for you to be sanctified....

Sometimes I am really thankful for memory verses.

A Song

What will you sing of your father?

6ix

Having most classes at 8 in the morning is starting to take its toll on me. The addiction to coffee to starting to set in... I am desperately trying to maintain my level of attentiveness in class. Simply zombiefied without coffee.

The internet is STILL down. Simply irritating. It was up for a few minutes last night, but it just suddenly died on me.

Struggling with Bioinformatics. Simply clueless about it. The irony of it is, I desperately need internet to revise/study this subject, but obviously thats not happening for a while.

The stupid reservist thing isn't settled yet, which just unsettles me in the back of my head.

OH WELLS.

Bioinformatics

Staring at a program/database which i simply do not understand. Man... ARGH.

Making Sense of Things... AGAIN

Hmmm I am giving this a shot. I don't know whether this is going to make sense or not, but here it goes.

Arise, shine. What does it mean to arise and shine? It starts with individuals, deep inside their hearts. Just taking that initial step of relinquishing control, changing of perspective that we are His, and that we don't live for ourselves anymore?

Wasn't that the reason why I joined C in the first place? haha it just comes back to me. Counting the cost of being a disciple, seeing loving obedience in the people. I do believe in seeing people around me saved but even more than that, I believe that God is going to use his children to do that.

Just random rantings... It's a partnership, we have our part to play in this as well.

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Strangely enough, I have a book entitled The Discipline of Grace lying in my cupboard. Should get down to reading it....

Doing Nothing

Lamb is yum. haha (:(:(:(:

Thanksgiving

I am quoting directly from E.M Bound's book on prayer.

Prayer, thanksgiving and consecration are all inseparably linked together....

Where ever there is true prayer, there thanksgiving and gratitude stand by, ready to respond to the answer when it comes. As prayer brings the answer, so the answer brings forth gratitude and praise. As prayer sets God to work, so answered prayer sets thanksgiving to work. Thanksgiving follows answered prayer as day succeeds night. True prayer and gratitude lead to full consecration, and consecration leads to more praying and better praying. A consecrated life is a life of both prayer and thanksgiving.


Amen...

Bleargh

I pray against the ugly things, such as complacency, not being thankful and just being disobedient. These are things that just slowly creep into life without even me knowing...

Won't be blogging much today because of the lack of internet access. I am now in MPKY's place because the usual internet service provider is not around. hahaha.

Man I'm tired, and i think i will not do my chores today. U********thoughts can wait as well. Its not safe to do it from other people's computers.. hohoho

I am thankful for L who helps me with PM stuff now. Yeah! hahaha

Things to do (pt 1)

1. Study (this is always at no. 1, and most likely will never ever be removed from this list. ha ha)
2. Buy a telephone, microwave, a new bed sheet and a TABLE.
3. Call the freshies
4. Send out the prayer points to the other Christian Groups.

yikes! haha

Bioinformatics

Hey guys, check out this absolutely cool website! I'm sure you guys will ABSOLUTELY love it, like I did.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/
http://au.expasy.org/

Enjoy. ha ha ha....

Up Cell

Last night was... a new experience to say the least. Sometimes at prayer meetings, all I can say is Thank You. To see how the ministry has been blessed, how lives are changing. Even when I was just thinking about how to encourage people to pray, You already knew what I need before I asked. Each person that comes already is an answer to my prayers. Thank You for your grace.

Playing God

Even as I sit in my lectures and listen to everything about the human genome project, it might be interesting, but I can't just help but be abit uneasy.

The so called 'The Book of Life' is in our hands. We have unraveled the the whole genome sequence of humans and maybe in a few years time, just for a mere 1000$, one can just sequence his whole genome. Big implications we have there...


I reckon it'll be time soon enough when I have to make that stand with regards to what I'm studying and what I believe in. Does Science and Religion really can't coexist?

Scary...

It's kinda screwed up if you think of it. This sorta sticky situation... Somehow I feel semi guilty for not persevering over this situation. Hmmz anyway it isnt about me anyway. Another one of those lessons to learn: to pray until an answer is given.

I think the best thing to ask for really is love. Perfect love casts out all fears, it casts out all sins, and love never fails.

Be quick... please.... Prolonging this wont do any good to anyone.

Science Student Speak (SSS)

The one thing about studying science is that the more I study, the more I realise there's so much I do not know, and will possibly never ever get to know in my lifetime. There are just some things which the human mind cannot simply comprehend.

The beauty and complexity of creation. I guess rather than trying to rationalise it and dissecting it into fragments to understand. It's more important to appreciate the beauty of the world (or what's left of it) and the hand behind the creation.

It's funny, now that i live on the 23rd floor and have a view of the whole city, sometimes I just realise how BIG this world is and how small I am in this world. Yet on the other token, just knowing that a sinner like me matters to God, and that there is the HS residing in me sometimes is just so 'wow'. Unexplainable.

Challenges coming my way? Specifically for myself, I guess the whole thing about 'not praying what people want to hear' but praying things God wants to hear. Especially in a corporate setting and on a very frequent basis. The trap is always there and I guess I just have to be very careful.

Hmmmz... I realise that on personal basis, I don't have a whole lot of great and absolutely exciting revelations. For me its more like knowing God through the simple things, about common ground made holy and living in His presence daily. The little things that comfort.

Where is my passion? I would rather be a strong, steadily burning flame, than a short-lived raging bonfire...

Gratitude.

For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for a lifetime;
Weeping may last for the night,
But a shout of joy comes in the morning.

I have no particular idea why, but I have been meditating Psalm 30 over the past few days. how many times have I been rescued from the pits? I think countless.

That my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent
O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever.

May I learn never to be silent when it comes to giving thanks.

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On a totally side note, I just realised that my 'expected' date of return is 5/03/07 on my exit permit. I really have no idea what's going on except to just say: 'oh dear...' I'm starting to feel abit like a fugitive.

Boss Talk

For once in a long while, boss talk was just scary...

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Breathe in, Breathe out

If there's 3 letters that can totally ruin my day. It's this:

S

A

F


ARGH.... I am DEFINITELY not a happy camper at this very moment right now.

A sense of humour

It's a wretched body I live in. Sometimes, I wish that my heart and my eyes would be ripped out...

Oscar Wilde once put it, ' If the Gods were to play with us, they would answer all our prayers'. There is a time and place for everything, even answered prayers. Sometimes, a NO is given and trust me, I am still learning to deal with that.

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Have you ever fallen in love? The initial sugar rush. The giving of flowers and candy, just wanting to go out with the other person. Talking and spending time with that person, just wanting to know as much as possible about the other party in the short time you are together with him/her.

Somehow (if all goes well. haha) the relationship develops into something more than that. Sometimes you argue and disagree over things and you question each other. Friction occurs and sometimes, you just have to give in to the other party. On certain days, you question whether you really know your loved one at all, to the extent you question whether do you REALLY love him/her.

At the end of the day, you just want to sit down and do nothing with your loved one. Absolutely nothing. Where both people are comfortable with the silence and just simply enjoying each other's company. Even the thought of conversation just fades away because at that point, connection had gone beyond the level of words. It's that very moment you live for and deep down in your heart, you would never ever trade that time spent for anything else in the world....

Isn't it like that sometimes? Especially with God, when all He wants us is to revere Him and be in His presence. To be still and know that He is God. The intimacy of silence...

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Lord, grant me a holy heart that sees what is fine and pure and is not frightened at the sight of sin, but creates order wherever it goes. Grant me a heart that knows nothing of boredom, weeping and sighing, let me not be too concerned with the bothersome thing I call 'myself'. Lord, give me a sense of humour, and I will find happiness in life and profit for others.