Duel

I'd never thought I would have felt this way anymore....
It's the simple wish of that innocent birthday girl, that sparked this once again.

They say blood is thicker than water, and it really is.

I always lived in your shadows. Hehz see the irony of it? I'm so tall, yet I always felt that I was in your shadow. You were the shrewd, the street smart, the independent one, the survivor, the fit and the strong. You still are and most likely will always be.

But in certain ways, even though I was in your shadows, I liked it there. I was proud of you. You were a leader in more ways than one... I looked up to you, admired you. In some ways i wanted to be like you and somehow I truly think that part of me has been modelled after you.

'That's him, the one in the red beret.....'
'Yup he's got a job in Sydney and he loves it there!'


Now my heart just bleeds when i think of you. How the mighty have fallen. I tell myself there's nothing i can ever possibly do. But deep down, i silently wished i had the power to change something and not feel so helpless....


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58 and 62... Sometimes, just maybe this few years really is a dream that is too good to be true.