Let it Go

Let it go. What does it mean to let it go?
To shut up and not think about it?

I realised that sometimes opportunities will never be given. God says that he has plans for his people. Plans to prosper and not to harm me. Does that mean that the plans will come into fruition by not doing anything at all? Just sitting back and waiting whilst time passes me by mercilessly?

We seek his will by being obedient to God in our actions and thoughts. God has already equipped us with what is needed to make decisions. I still have to make the concious effort to plan for my future, to search for openings, to strive and a reach for my dreams, all in obedience to him of course. Am I not?

Whoever watches the wind will not plant;
whoever looks at the clouds will not reap

And that is the fine line we tread on. To think and not to worry, to plan and not to forget about seeking, to toil but to work together with God.

Some say its a case of just being overconcerned or worrying or thinking too much, but hey i will never live the day down knowing that i didnt live up to my full potential. Knowing that i spent probably what could be my best 2 or 3 years of life in Melbourne and I didnt use it wisely enough to find myself more opportunities for a better future. That'll kill me.

My family knows what's it like to have a lack of opportunity. My mom didnt have a proper education. My dad wasnt granted tertiary education when he was young coz he couldnt speak english. And know what do i have??? A fully paid education overseas. My time here is paid by blood sweat and tears. (Maybe that explains the sombreness).

Opportunities are given to some; thrown in their lap in fact. Sometimes i will just have to fight for mine. Like what the father and mother did. My bro always tells me 'Be careful of the rich kids here in Aus, you're different from them.' (no offense to anyone). And i think i understand why now. God blesses and uses people differently.

Through it all I am still struggling to surrender everything to God. To seek his will and act accordingly. And the actions include planning for the future and doing well to honour His name

Such is life. To strike a fine and perfect balance in our lives with total obedience to God. and it is not easy.