The Road Ahead

Is it my fault?
There's no such thing as smooth sailing for me.
Things never go as i would i like them to.
The road ahead and before is always so dark.

Am i being selfish?

I can and will look out for others but Who's looking out for me?
When i fall, will it be a long tumble down the abyss? I shudder to think of it.

Am i being selfish??

Is it wrong to look out for myself?

Surrender.
Submit.

I struggle with that.